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Wednesday, 21 March 2007 |
i wear a mask to hide
all the pain i feel inside
i admit i had a few drinks
but, what you did i would not think.
i was not in the right state of mind,
the night you came and grabbed me from behind.
you knew what you were going to do
i did not think something like this would come from you
we used to date; we used to go out
how did this all come about?
i feel so cheated, so used,
i do not want to suffer from your abuse.
i pray to god at night
why didn’t he give me the strength to fight?
i do not know what to do or where to turn
my mind is racing my heart feels burned.
this was something i did not expect
i did not think you had so little respect.
where am i to go? who can i talk to?
i am made to be the whore not you.
i sit here crying i can not get ride of the pain.
what you did to me i could call insane.
but instead, i will accept the fact
that night i will have to live with, i can not take it back
i will keep my mouth shut tight
because i am afraid to tell my friends
what happened last friday night.
i hope you know what you did to me
i hope you feel what i feel and see what i see.
i want to scream i want to yell
i want to get rid of this pain that i feel.
it is not fair with what i have to live with
how am i supposed to deal with this shit?
you think you did nothing wrong.
i feel so weak. lord help me to be strong.
help me find the strength to turn the other cheek.
and forgive the man who took everything from me.
i can run from this i can not escape.
i will have to live with the night of this horrible rape.
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